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The cosplay stays on

chainsaw man feels

I loved this album so much, first time I've listened to this song in possibly years

HIM - Venus Doom

I've been microdosing lately, since its one of the few things that help with my overall mental health, I think physical as well. Trying to take care of myself as much as I can as my health still continues to suffer. I feel I maybe making some small progress but my sleep is still poor, lots of loneliness and sadness, feeling disconnected from about everyone else.

Also trying to make at least some effort to get out more, since I don't really date or get out much (a lot of this due to my health). But people really keep letting me down lately, I feel only person I can truly rely on is myself. It is mostly the opposite sex, and also just people overall.

I really wish people were true to their word, honest and didn't just ghost or abandon me. I already have low energy and when I don't get anything back or reciprocated it just really burnts me out more.

I've been burnt out most of my adult life, not only due to the autism but mental and physical health challenges, while also dealing with toxic family, friends, relationships and also workplaces unfortunately too. On top of being medically gaslight and taken advantage of by mainsteam medical system as well.

Coffee ene ma time

#nohomo

When you have an "invisible illness", chronic illness or whatever you wanna call it, you basically become invisible to everyone else.

That's about how I feel about it, whether it be physical, mental, some combination of, etc.

I've basically lost most of my social circle, family for the most part and don't even get me started on trying to date when you're dealing with all of this too.

I've been gaslight by the medical community, family, taken advantage of and had further trauma upon what I'm already dealing with.

I've had people as in former coworkers, random strangers on the internet, tell me how to live my life when they aren't in the same situation with their health.

People love to give unsolicited advice, and while I don't mind it here and there, I've heard so much of the same repetitive unsolicited advice not only from doctors, counselors but also family and some friends.

I have no to little faith in the mainstream medical system and community and that extends to mental health treatment. It's a for profit system that at best takes care of the symptoms and doesn't treat any kind of root cause or issue.

I'm really struggling as of late, It's a combination of being tired, being tired of being tired, being in pain a lot of the time.

On top of that, being on thin ice at work, because once again due to my health I can't keep up and expecting more out of me.

I'm trying to make, save and invest as much as I can, but my TMJD treatment which would be really beneficial for not only my sleep but overall pain, inflammation, costs 4000 USD total and while there are payment plans, i also need to put down a deposit.

On top of that not to go into great detail those around me locally, more so women honestly just keep letting me down.

I did go out and won a game at a video game bar which was nice, also drank some.

Tired of being confined to basically working, working on my self/health and having no life outside of.

I miss myself, I miss training in martial arts (I've trained in 5-6 martial arts and MMA), acting (i was an extra in a few local tv shows/movies), basically having any kind of social or sex life (tbh the latter I've always struggled with).

My skin and gut issues have been super bad lately, more so my skin, having redness and swelling around my eyes which ive never had.

Also tired of working jobs I can't stand for little pay, I don't want to work in culinary/foodservice anymore, especially for the pay I make and what its doing to my body and mind.

Also having pain in my neck and mid back as well too which are driving me nuts too.