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A year ago, I finally felt your embrace, and I don’t know if I’ll ever feel anything so ***pure*** again. You almost broke my neck with that hug as you cried tears of joy into my chest. I had made it to you, just as I had promised a year before. ***We were finally one, and we always will be. I love you, Mi Vida, My Angel. Siempre…***

@octopus4

Happy two year anniversary, Angel. I know you're in Heaven, watching over me as I struggle to put one foot in front of the other, and I can feel you giving me stability with your little hands, and guiding my path with your whispers.

This is not the celebration we had envisioned, but trust me when I tell you that your family is safe, and I will continue to be there for them as long as I live. I'm going to gloat a little and mention to everyone that you followed me first...the ***best*** thing that has ever happened to me...You, mi vida...siempre. The past two years could fill most people's lifetimes, and I will always cherish you.

***Your starlight will never fade away...***

@octopus4

***Trigger Warning***

This beautiful song was sent to me by @queensparkles. It only took me six weeks to be strong enough to post it. I hope that anyone who has experienced loss can heal from this, if only a little bit.

***"I miss your love I miss your touch
But I'm feeling you every day
And I can almost hear you say
"You've come a long way baby...""***

You said when you'd die that you'd walk
with me every day
And I'd start to cry and say please don't talk that way
With the blink of an eye the Lord came
and asked you to leave
You went to a better place, but He stole you
away from me

And now she lives in Heaven
But I know they let her out
To take care of me

There's a strange kind of light
Caressing me tonight
Pray silence my fear she is near
Bringing Heaven down here

I miss your love I miss your touch
But I'm feeling you every day
And I can almost hear you say
"You've come a long way baby"

And now you live in Heaven
But I know they let you out
To take care of me

There's a strange kind of light
In my bedroom tonight
Pray silence my fear she is near
Bring your Heaven down here

You taught me kings and queens
While stroking my hair
In my darkest hour I know you are there
Kneeling down beside me
Whispering my prayer

Yes, there's a strange kind of light
Caressing me tonight
Pray silence my fear
She is near
Bringing Heaven down here

The next time that we meèt
I will bow at her feet
And say wasn't life sweet
Then we'll prepare
To take Heaven down there

Robbie Williams - "Nan's Song"

My Angel, my wife (her own words) Jello4thot ( @octopus4 ) is fully at rest now.

@thedarkvoice
@solefulseductress
@kevid19
@lunareine
@delilah_quinn
@itsmekittylee

And so many others. My sincerest thanks to you all.

***”But I lost more than my friend
I can't help but missing you…”***

I know it's a bad idea
But how can I help myself?
Been inside for most this year
And I thought a few drinks, they might help

It's been a while, my dear
Dealing with the cards life dealt
I'm still holding back these tears
While my friends are somewhere else

I pictured this year a little bit different
When it hit February
I step in the bar, it hit me so hard
Oh, how can it be this heavy?
Every song reminds me you're gone
And I feel the lump form in my throat
'Cause I'm here alone

Just dancing with my eyes closed
'Cause everywhere I look I still see you
And time is moving so slow
And I don't know what else that I can do
So I'll keep dancing with my

Eye-eye-eye-eyes
Eye-eye-eye-eyes closed
Eye-eye-eye-eyes
So I'll keep dancing with my

***Delusion is here again
And I think you'll come home soon
A word brings me right back in
Then it's only me that's in this room

I guess I could just pretend
The colours are more than blue
But I lost more than my friend
I can't help but missing you***

I pictured this month a little bit different
No one is ever ready
And when it unfolds, you get in a hole
Oh, how can it be this heavy?
Everything changes, nothing's the same
Except the truth is now you're gone
And life just goes on

So I'm dancing with my eyes closed
'Cause everywhere I look I still see you
And time is moving so slow
And I don't know what else that I can do
So I'll keep dancing with my

Eye-eye-eye-eyes
Eye-eye-eye-eyes closed
Eye-eye-eye-eyes
So I'll keep dancing with my

Eye-eye-eye-eyes
Eye-eye-eye-eyes closed
Eye-eye-eye-eyes
Oh, I keep dancing with my

They're shutting the bar
They're cleaning the floor
And everyone is already home
But I'm on my own

Still dancing with my eyes closed
'Cause everywhere I look I still see you
Time is moving so slow
And I don't know what else that I can do
So I'll keep dancing with my

Eye-eye-eye-eyes
Eye-eye-eye-eyes closed
Eye-eye-eye-eyes
Oh, I keep dancing with my

Eye-eye-eye-eyes
Eye-eye-eye-eyes closed
Eye-eye-eye-eyes
Oh, I keep dancing with my

Ed Sheeran - “Eyes Closed”

It’s been a long, cold month without you, Mi Vida.

If you need to know how to fight on in the midst of your darkest nightmares, follow me.

***”When your fire's died out
No one's there
They have left you for dead
Follow me…”***

When darkness falls
And surrounds you
When you fall down
When you're scared
And you're lost, be brave
I'm coming to hold you now
When all your strength has gone
And you feel wrong
Like your life has slipped away

Follow me
You can follow me
And I, I will not desert you now
When your fire's died out
No one's there
They have left you for dead

Follow me
You can follow me
I will keep you safe
Follow me
You can follow me
I will protect you

Oh, I won't let them hurt
Hurting you, no
Oh yeah
When your heart is breaking

You can follow me
You can follow me
I will always keep you safe
Follow me
You can trust in me
I will always protect you, my love
Oh, feel my love
Oh, feel my love
Oh

Muse - “Follow Me”

Brief update, and a heartfelt thank you. I’m fighting. I owe it to Jello, Mi Vida, to live a full, happy life, and to be there for her family and friends.

My best work, brought to fruition...only to be torn away by death, but I WILL see you again.

Give me the strength ***(He did.)***
Let me prove doubters to be fools ***(I did.)***
To regain my health ***✔***
To fly to her ***(I drove 4,000 miles, and flew 6,000 in fewer than 9 months.)***
Leave the old behind ***✔***

Start anew alongside you ***(I never blinked.)***
Face the challenges of this earthly test hand in hand ***(Baby, nothing worldly could stop us.)***
Walk with you for the rest of my days ***(You will walk with me for the rest of mine. Always...)***
To cross over into eternity having been yours ***(You went before me, but I will cross one day, and see you again...)***
To make what seemed fantasy a reality ***(We blurred the line of what was possible and impossible. "We found love in a broken place.")***

Make me an honest man again ***(You changed me for the better, in all aspects.)***

Show me I waited all this time for a reason ***(We transcended time.)***
That all of my pain was not in vain ***(I would endure it all again in an instant, just to see you again.)***
Shatter this glass house of loneliness ***(You're still with me, Angel.)***
Dismantle the walls around my heart and soul ***(Baby, you walked right through them.)***
Embrace me ***(You almost broke my neck when we finally touched.)***

Let me show you what true love truly is… ***(We showed one another, and the world will never be able to take that from us. I'll see you again when I cross the bar.)***

Original post to @octopus4 Written in 2021:
https://onlyfans.com/199914708/rx_vitamin_d

I, and @thedarkvoice believe that this is a critical message not just because it answers the many questions that this community has about the loss of My Angel, our beloved @octopus4 , but because I want it to serve everyone as a mental health live. I want you to celebrate and remember how incredible Jello was/is...just a ***pure beacon of light*** out here (and in life) who everyone loved in one way or another, but I also want you to be able to see how I, with the help of dear friends, will fight through this tremendous loss. People who are going through anything close to this...they need to see that it's not the end, and I encourage everyone to watch and follow me if you're going through ANYTHING tragic.

Unfortunately, two hours of the live is missing, and it's a shame because we started to touch on the happy memories and celebrate her. I will be doing another live where that will be the focus. I don't want the tragedy to be the legacy. I want her infectious personality to be retold through mine, and his stories about her. For now, this is the "here's what happened." I want to thank everyone who has reached out in any way. I have seen you, and I have heard you, and it means far more than you know. Thank you! - Rx

https://onlyfans.com/655002689/thedarkvoice

https://onlyfans.com/octopus4?rec=154137257

Most of you are aware by this point, but for those who are not, I lost @octopus4 (Jello4thot) my love, my fiancée, my Angel, the light of my life, Mi Vida late Thursday night. I am not ok. I’m completely devastated, and the family and I need your prayers. I cannot bring myself to be here right now, if at all. Please understand.

The full story will be found on @thedarkvoice ’s page. I did a four hour live with him explaining everything. I respectfully ask for privacy. Thank you.

Mine and My Angel’s song. I was blessed to dance with her in the aisle as we heard them perform it live. It’s the song that opened her heart to me, when I gave her mine. All I wanted, and all I want, is to hold her in my arms. Siempre, @octopus4, Mi Vida…Siempre.

“Far away
This ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

Starlight
***I will be chasing a starlight
Until the end of my life***
I don't know if it's worth it anymore

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive

***I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away***

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

Far away
This ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

***Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations, yeah
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations***

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms
***I just wanted to hold…”***

Muse - “Starlight”

***"If I could bring you back
There are truths and confessions I'd tell you
I'd set things straight
And I believe that you would love and forgive me..."***

Now and then
My mind drifts to a place where I find you
Lost in my head
There are unsolved feelings that haunt me
It's too late to heal
I'll lay them to rest

How can I move on
When everyone I see still talks about you
How can I move on
When all the best things I have we made together
Here's to letting go
But I am lost in a void with your ghost and our memories
Lest we forget
The great reset

If I could bring you back
There are truths and confessions I'd tell you
I'd set things straight
And I believe that you would love and forgive me
I know it's too late
I need to let go

How can I move on
When everyone I see still talks about you
How can I move on
When all the best things I have we built together
Here's to letting go
But I am trapped in a void with your ghost and our memories
Lest we forget
The great reset

How can I sleep with this coldness beside me
How can I sleep with this coldness inside me
I know I can't bring back your love

How can I move on
When everyone I see still talks about you
How can I move on
When all the best things I have were made together
Here's to letting go
But I am lost in a void with your ghost and our memories
Lest we forget
The great reset

Oo-Oo-Ooh

Muse - "Ghosts (How Can I Move On)"

Give me the strength
Let me prove doubters to be fools
To regain my health
To fly to her
Leave the old behind

Start anew alongside you
Face the challenges of this earthly test hand in hand
Walk with you for the rest of my days
To cross over into eternity having been yours
To make what seemed fantasy a reality

Make me an honest man again

Show me I waited all this time for a reason
That all of my pain was not in vain
Shatter this glass house of loneliness
Dismantle the walls around my heart and soul
Embrace me

Let me show you what true love truly is…